I never quite know what to do with myself when I’m like this. I know retreating from the world and everything in it is probably not the healthiest option right now but it’s kind of all I want to do.
I believe I mentioned previously, Dr. Psychiatrist is adjusting meds again which always seems to make me a bit unsteady no matter what is being adjusted, or by how much. In this particular instance I switched from just bupropion to a relatively new combo drug approved in 2022 that adds, of all things, dextromethorphan. The theory is the addition of DM will improve my anxiety symptoms. If I don’t have any terrible side effects, I’ll be increasing the dose of DM in a couple weeks.
Whatever the DM is supposed to do I wish it would get on with it. I’m certain I’m not terribly pleasant to be around when I’m this symptomatic and, as I mentioned above, I have increased difficulty doing anything other than sitting and moping.
I hope people will bear with me until I’m tolerable to be around again. Fingers crossed it won’t take too long.
What has worked for me in similar circumstances is to bury my brain in something that requires a lot of concentration but has absolutely zero significant consequences. Study a new language. Brush up on your Japanese. Play a completely stupid video game – Games For Grandma has a lot of them. Color. Paint D&D figurines. Knit or crochet. Origami. Hell, if you want to try your hand at sewing I’ve got a spare sewing machine. But it’s important that it’s something that you can do without another real person in the room. Internet people are okay because they don’t require any interaction.
I think that this makes your regular contributions to this blog all the more helpful, both for you and us. It’s a social connection that doesn’t require interacting with us in real-time or meatspace. It’s not the same as face-to-face human contact but it beats the almighty Christ out of nothing. Believe me, we’ll take it.
Off-topic, what’s next in your pharmacological regimen, Sizzurp? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)