Yesterday was really rough. The bath felt amazing while I was actually in the water but as soon as I got out I felt worse than before. Chills (no fever though), headache, weakness, dizziness, nausea, and what I think could only be called a severe generalized malaise, in addition to the ongoing bladder spasms. After a few hours of wishing I would just hurry up and die already, I gave up and took every pill I could think of that could possibly even maybe help (for the record it was 1000 mg of Tylenol, 20 mg of Pepcid, 8 mg of Zofran, 200 mg of Pyridium, 120 mg of simethicone, 2 Tums, 3 mg of melatonin and 100 mg of sumatriptan). After that I finally felt better enough that I could eat something and go to sleep.
As an aside, I don’t recommend the “shotgun” approach to treating symptoms as outlined above. Not only does it lack any kind of style or elegance, if you throw the kitchen sink at your patient and they get better there’s no real way to figure out which of the 9000 things you did actually worked. That said, desperate times and all that.
Anyway, today is a little better so far. The Pyridium seems(?) to be helping(?) the bladder spasms and I’m back to baseline with maybe feeling a little wrung out from feeling so terrible yesterday.
hopefully this was a fluke and isn’t going to be typical of how I’m going to react to future BCG doses but, again, the only way to find out is to just keep going.
I really, truly feel for you, Man. But I have to say, you getting to the point where you might admit you can’t handle absolutely everything on your own might be worth the suffering. If Shawn had done that just a bit earlier he might not have come so close to dying… 😐