Vicious circles are something I’m really good at. I’ve been feeling anti-social1, and I have a distorted view of my position in society which tells me if I’m not actively engaging, people tend to forget I exist2. This, of course, makes me feel even more anti-social.
On the up side, I do think my new combo med with dextromethorphan does seem to be helping with my generalized anxiety, and I continue to sleep reasonably well.
I suppose what this comes down to is another request to continue to bear with me, which I already know everyone will. Even if I don’t respond to texts, or comments, or phone calls, I read and appreciate the content. Not responding doesn’t mean I don’t care or I’m not paying attention, I’m just being Oscar the Grouch.
- Obligatory quote from St. Swithin’s Day by Grant Morrison – I’m not anti-social, society is anti-me. ↩︎
- This is not fishing for compliments. I’m aware people seem to think I have many redeeming qualities, the difficulty is I haven’t entirely persuaded my brain to believe it yet. This is a work in progress. ↩︎
Consider this to be your official feedback loop. We love you. We want to know how you’re doing, even if the news isn’t rosy. When we don’t hear from you we don’t forget you; we just struggle with riding the line between being as supportive as we possibly can and counter-productively getting in your face. We too would appreciate feedback. If something we’re doing isn’t helping, let us know and we’ll change what we’re doing/how we’re doing it. Transmission ends.