Insert Scumbag Steve meme here – states intention to post more frequently; disappears for a month. That is a thing that happened and I don’t really have a good explanation for why. Nothing much seemed post-worthy.
Since the last update, the major piece of news is that the extreme house cleaners came through and extremely cleaned the place. This is not to say that the place is extremely clean, but it is extremely cleaner than it was. Functional, even, which has made living somewhat less complicated.
With the theme of un-complicating things in mind, I am working on developing some self-care habits. I’m sure I have lamented previously in these e-pages about my lack of skill in the self-care department. This is, of course, the result of running myself ragged for twenty years or so while trying to behave as if I was an unlimited resource. Which is, more or less, how I ended up where I am now.
Currently I’m working on some very complex habits, like remembering to eat, take my meds, and brush my teeth. I’m hoping to move on to more advanced topics soon, so if anyone has any good tips for taking care of oneself, please feel free to share. Or don’t. Either way.
Glad to hear that there’s been some positive movement in your world this last month!
I’ve been a hell of an anxious and low-level-depressed mess about the move to Canada and all the etc. in the world leading to the move to Canada.
I’m going to be working hard to get myself into a new routine once Nicole and I are up there and checked in with immigration and everything.
Since you are working to get yourself into a new positive routine as well, I thought I’d toss out the idea of us forming a Habitica party. It’s something that has helped me build good routines and self-care habits in the past, and thought it might be something that might click for you as well.
It’s an app that lightly gamifies a goals list and lets you build an rpg character and party that grows based on how frequently and regularly you accomplish the goals you set for yourself.
https://habitica.com/static/home
Lmk if you think you might be interested in forming a party together.
Otherwise, love you and hope to see you this week!
I know from whom you inherited the attitude of powering through it. I still do it in spite of more or less frequent metaphorical dope slaps.
One step at a time — 10 minutes of putting stuff back on a shelf or deciding that (insert item here) needs to go to Goodwill is therapy. Yer lovin’ mom teases me that I spent more time tidying up my lair than I do using it — not true but close enough.
While looking for something else, detail on an art show, (the only way I ever find anything interesting) — in my journal of February 2001 “I guess that what I want is for the world to say ‘Hey, you’ve busted your ass long enough – what don’t you take the train to ‘Frisco for a couple of weeks and frisk while I sort everything out.’
Sound familiar?
Wow, what Ed wrote about sounds pretty cool. I don’t think I can top that. I think maybe the only thing I can offer up is to try not to overthink whatever path you choose. Don’t spend a lot of time wondering if maybe you should be doing something differently, or feeling differently about what you are doing, or feeling differently about how you feel about what you are feeling about what you are doing. A little self-reflection is a powerful thing, but too much can just get in the way.
Good to see you back on teh Intarwebs, my Man.