If you run into an asshole in the morning, you ran into an asshole. If you run into assholes all day, you’re the asshole.
Raylan Givens; Justified
Not saying I’m the asshole (not meaning to imply that I’m not the asshole either) but when different people are all independently telling you the same thing, you may want to pay attention to what they’re saying.
As mentioned in the previous post, nearly every person of significance in my life that I talked to about the question of whether or not to come off light duty said the same thing with surprisingly little variation. The common theme seemed to be a general concern that I was going to scramble my brain if I didn’t ease up on things a little.
I will certainly admit to having felt overwhelmed and overcommitted for most of the last three years or so, but I always assumed that was because my life was a disorganized mess and I couldn’t get my shit together. It is possible that I have been feeling overwhelmed and overcommitted because I actually have been overwhelmed and overcommitted. And then I got cancer.
The point to all this is that my primary care doctor gave me a note that appears to authorize light duty for me indefinitely and I may take advantage of that to stay on light duty until I actually feel better. As one particularly insightful person pointed out to me, I have obligations to my family that should carry at least as much weight as my obligation to work. It has been altogether too easy for me to forget that and I needed the reminder.
I’m still not sure what needs to happen before I feel like I’m ready to go back to work but I’m going to make an effort to find out rather than just going back whenever.
Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you.